shoulda, woulda, coulda

i'm feeling blue today... if i had only gotten things straight before today, i could've gone to the QR OD. i should've never been too procrastinating, or i would've been able to fullfill a productive day.
shoulda, woulda, coulda.... are the last words of a fool. yeah. the song was right.. FOOL.
i didn't even allow myself to be persuaded by people who have been there to help me.
instead, i lead myself to believe that something broken can ever be fixed YET AGAIN. well.. HELL NO! I AM DONE. NO MORE CONVINCING MYSELF THAT WE COULD EVER BE OK. SO THERE. I SAY I AM STARTING AGAIN.
STARTING OVER AGAIN. :)


with that said... i'd like to ask those who have gone to the QR OD today... kamusta? tell me stories of the stuff that i missed. haaay... no more fooling myself na. like i said... starting OVER. help me? enlighten me? teach me? tell me stories.. :) miss you guys! mwah!

sigh....

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”